A model and US Air Force veteran has bravely revealed that harrowing addiction battle behind her glossy Instagram façade – admitting that she was left ‘seconds from death’ while consuming up to ’10 bottles of wine a day’.
Alysia Magen, who grew up in Nebraska and now lives in Miami, has more than 1.5 million followers, where she shares racy snaps and images of her lavish lifestyle.
But just six months ago, she was ‘killing herself’ drinking vast quantities of wine as well as copious amounts of spirits.
The 33-year-old would drink ‘from morning to night’ to cope with the trauma from her past of having been physically, emotionally and financially abused by ex-partners.
Alysia Magen, a model and US Air Force veteran, has spoken out about her alcoholic past when she was drinking up to ’10 bottles of wine a day’
Magen’s seemingly idyllic Instagram life masks her hidden battle
Now, Alysia is opening up about her addiction issues for the first time, revealing the desperate battle that she was fighting while posting glamorous images on Instagram in order to keep the image of her ‘perfect’ lifestyle alive.
‘The strong girl was gone – I didn’t know who I was at that time,’ she told NudePR.com.
‘I didn’t know I was an alcoholic, I thought it was just something to manage anxiety.
‘I would wake up in the morning shaking from withdrawal.
‘At the time I thought that was a panic attack and I would have started drinking shooters (spirits) as soon as I woke up.”
It was only later that Magen realized what was really happening.
‘I was so mentally sick and could see I was in pain and not there,’ she said. ‘I feel like a fraud and a fake because I was living a lie for so long.’
As time went on, Magen retreated into himself more and more.
‘Throughout that period I wasn’t the person I am at all,’ she said. ‘I was scared to even go outside and meet people.
‘At times I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror.
Magen tears up in an emotional video. During her battle with addiction, she said she couldn’t even look at herself in the mirror
She said it had been triggered by the pain of being in an abusive relationship
Magen, who was pictured in hospital after overdosing on drugs, says his drinking first began while he was in the military and became progressively worse
‘I did it all to block out the pain of being in an abusive relationship. It’s amazing what trauma can do.’
Magen’s drinking first began while she was in the military and became progressively worse after she was allegedly demoted for posting a revealing snap of herself on Instagram alongside one of her in military uniform.
She claims to have been ostracized after it happened and spent her last six months in the military in ‘painful isolation’.
As time went on, Magen retreated into himself more and more.
‘Throughout that period I wasn’t the person I am at all,’ she said. ‘I was scared to even go outside and meet people.
‘At times I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror.
‘I did it all to block out the pain of being in an abusive relationship. It’s amazing what trauma can do.’
Magen’s drinking first began while she was in the military and became progressively worse after she was allegedly demoted for posting a revealing snap of herself on Instagram alongside one of her in military uniform.
Magen’s drinking first began while he was in the military and became progressively worse after he was allegedly demoted
According to Alysia, she was demoted for posting a revealing snap of herself on Instagram alongside one of her in military uniform
Magen shows off her gym body. She says she felt ‘like a fraud’ for ‘living a lie for so long’
The Instagram model poses at a restaurant in a blue dress. She has revealed details about her harrowing alcohol addiction
She claims to have been ostracized after it happened and spent her last six months in the military in ‘painful isolation’.
After being demoted in 2017, Magen threw himself into social media full-time, which involved unconventional hours and lots of parties, and saw his drinking escalate.
Eventually, things spiraled out of control and the model also began taking drugs, including cocaine and opioids.
At one point, she overdosed and was rushed to the hospital.
‘The doctors said if I had been 10 seconds later, I would have died,’ Magen said. ‘I was literally seconds from death but I didn’t care. I had lost all interest in life.
‘Dealing with all that pain and trauma makes you want to get high to numb the pain.
‘I wanted to get help but when